Why Taking Pictures Is Important
"Family who built me will always be a favorite." Let's define a family first; my definition of family is a bit different than others, I believe that any person in this world who cares about me and knows something about my personal life is my family. I don't usually take many pictures and I believe that if I'm in front of a gorgeous view, I shouldn't waste my time and take thousands of pictures and I should live at the moment. But the picture I'm writing about is one of the pictures that I have been wanting to keep forever.A Picture with one of my closest friends and couple of my teammates.A low quality picture in reality but a high quality one in my mind.December, 16th, 2015, I was about to leave my whole family and friends in less than a week and it was officially my last game for the team. I couldn't stop thinking about the unclear future in front of me while I was on my way in an old bus to the stadium, a week before, when I was getting my ticket I was excited but at that moment that I knew it's my last time wearing my cleats in that stadium I was the saddest person in the world. Two hours later, we were done with the game, Last win, I grabbed hat-trick. Every single player in the team was happy, but I wasn't, I knew that was the last game. It was one of the few times in my life that I actually wanted to snap a picture and I did.
We walked 5 miles from the training ground to our homes and didn't ride the bus just because we couldn't say: "Goodbye!" Finally the time came and I was speechless I couldn't organize words in my mind. All the long phone calls, goal celebrations , matching cleats and memories were gone. I didn't sleep a minute that night; I was excited but at the same time depressed. Words can't explain my feelings on that night, I had never been happy and sad at the same time.
The next day I flew to Armenia to do some paperwork at the US embassy.I had to stay there for a week.In the snowy, -20 C weather in Armenia I had nothing to do except looking at that picture and think about my memories , my childhood and also my future in "The Land of Opportunity." I was standing right on top of the edge between past and future and it was the only period in my life that I was thinking about past and future not that moment. I still think the one week is the strangest 7 day period in my life.Every single one of us has experienced the "overhang" feeling; the feeling that we know what is the right thing to do, but we don't do it because there is something tries to pull us out of the right track, that reason is not necessarily a negative concept ,inverse, it can actually be an affirmative concept like the love for family and friends.It's strange how a piece of paper can carry that huge amount of memories and give our mind a free time-traveling ticket whenever we look at that piece of paper, you can feel this feeling even if you are not an emotional person. You just need to think about what was going on at that moment, when the picture has taken, and then I guarantee, you will lose yourself in the ocean of memories.
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